I don't think there's anything worse than love that turns to hate
<<2002-11-04 - 7:01 p.m.>>

I wonder how I'd cope if something irrevocably awful happened to me. Or to us, my family. I don't mean something like, exam failure or fighting with a friend, I mean like... divorce or losing a limb or going blind or deaf. I don't think I have the strength in me to cope. I think I'd hate the world and go into a hole.

It's not a bad world really, not from where I'm standing. I've got everything pretty much sorted and so I stop moaning about university RIGHT NOW because I refuse to be ungrateful for all the options open to me anymore. I get to travel the world, boo hoo. Jeez. Look at the state of me.

Things are going to change. Not for me so much, but for 3 of my friends.

I got a straight A in French.

I managed to get everything done today. Wow, maybe I'm not a failure as a human being after all.

Rob's tomorrow... coolness times a million.

My mum was telling me that a girl from my year who she now works with just got engaged to her 24 year old freako possessive boyfriend. Ugh. She's stupid, who would ever commit to someone who is that creepy and lame?

So yeah. I think she was hinting at me not to go get engaged. I was like... YEAH OK I don't plan on doing that ever, especially not now!

Well maybe someday. You know, when I'm all secure and rich and totally sure it wouldn't end in divorce. I don't think there's anything worse than love that turns to hate.

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