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Typical Friday but not in a bad way “Uh, yeah, I’m taken anyway…” “Yeah I always want the ones who are taken too. Damn.” Hmm. Okay, typical Thursday/Friday going on. Last night was… was… strange. I was terrible to Rob and I really didn’t mean it and when he said that he’d never get angry with me whatever I did… that upset me because I’m so, so afraid of hurting him because I don’t even know if I can cope with this emotional load that comes with wanting to be with someone so much that you push them away… does that make sense? No? Nah, I don’t get it either. But still. I wish nobody loved me and then I could be bitter with a cause rather than trying not to get in too deep, constantly checking myself and thinking that the less I care the less I’ll hurt when it falls down around me. I tend to lose people I care about and I’m sick of pining. If I lost Rob I swear I’d kill myself, not actively but through misery. Now that makes me sound like a needy girl who can’t last without a male on her arm but that’s not what I mean – it’s like, he makes everything so much better and makes me have some sort of positive attitude towards my world and my future. I could last without him but I wouldn’t want to. I really wish we could just run off somewhere… somewhere where I didn’t have to go to university and we could just be together like in the movies. Okay. So I went to college after last night, then I went to work and stopped for an hour to talk to Mark and Kevin (Kevin was there, I had no desire for contact really but hey, perils of the job). We drank coffee, sat on the wall and talked about how we miss the way things used to be back in the summer when we were all together and everything was simpler. It was nice. Then I had a missed call on my phone from Sarah who wanted to tell me she had found Clerks cheap… lol, then I rang her back and invited her over tonight since the parents are going out for a meal with Bev and David Ingham. We’ll grab a movie, some drink and possibly a pizza and chill. Since Joanne is pregnant now, things may be different, she can’t just turn up, puffing on cigs and drinking to her hearts content. I bet she’ll have a little girl. I hope so, we do not need more men in the world, there are already so many that they make a girl confused! Peace out. Muhaha. |
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