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Curl up and die
<<2003-02-26 - 9:42 a.m.>>

Well I FINALLY got a reply from Edinburgh. Evil, evil people rejected me! Lol, it's not like I wanted to go I was just curious to see whther I could get into the most prestigious University in Scotland... guess I couldn't. I feel kinda like a failure despite the fact that I'm going to the third best university in the UK behind Oxford and Cambridge. Oh well.

I just got back from Rob's. He was a little poorly this morning so he didn't go to work so I walked down to the bus station on my own. It was all misty and morose and I felt a lot happier that I have done in a while about the whole thing. I think it's because I thought about what my life would be like without him and this huge wave of panic set in because he's the one thing that keeps me stable most of the time... I don't think anyone realises how fragile I am. Not really. And I won't start trying to find the answer as to why I'm so sensitive because I don't really want to psychoanalyse myself, it's too damn early.

So, looks like I can reply to my offer letter this week sometime and my future will be set in concrete.

That scares me so much I want to curl up and die.

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