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The friendship that never was
<<2003-03-13 - 8:28 p.m.>>

Kay so I haven't updated in a couple of days. I suck. Lol. Yeah, my exam went pretty well, I think, although obviously I don't have my marks back yet so we shall see. Once I got over the nerves and told myself to stop being so god damn stupid by panicking, I was fine. I went to Rob's after that, which was fun. I walked up to his house since I was really early and it was nice, in a weird sort of way... I actually like it up there, all the little roads and the big church and everything are sort of pretty. Did I just call Halifax pretty?! Must be something in the water. We watched Orgasmo... which was an interesting movie, to say the least. At least I know know where the Hamster-Style act Rob and Sy used to do originally came from!

Today turned out differently than what I expected. Since I didn't start college until 1.35pm, I stayed in bed for a little while when Rob got up and went to work and then, I got the bus back to Huddersfield to meet Laura in time for results, since today was A Level results day for the first modules of the year. I only had general studies to collect but I went for moral support.

Anyway I ended up being told to meet Laura and Sy (yes Sy) outside college since he was dropping her off. He came in with us and we had to pass him off as a student, which was pretty easy actually since he looks like most of us Greenhead students anyway! As it turned out, both Laura and I got Bs in General Studies but Laura managed to pull off 5 A grades in her other subjects! So we were driven back to halifax since we had a couple of hours spare and Sy treated us both to lunch at The Goose. I also went into Sy's for a bit to meet his little Rottweiler puppy... she's so gorgeous, I fell in love instantly. I also saw Scott which was weird after all this time. Sy and Laura were telling me that Scott apparently told Sy that I'm a "fair lass" a couple of weeks ago. Bless him, I thought he just liked to pick on my hair.

It was strange, sitting there just the three of us. In fact I got kind of depressed afterwards because... I loved the way it was before, it was great to have such a close group of people in my life. But I've realised now that things can't ever go back to the way they were, not even if we tried and I don't think it's worth wading through all the crap now. It's just... it feels like such a shame and I leave in a few months and I feel like... maybe we could have all made it last just a few months longer so I could leave a happy summer and not bitterness behind me. I don't know, maybe it will make it easier to leave. It looks like out of the four of us, I'll be the furthest away. Which won't necessarily be a bad thing. If me and Rob are meant to work, we'll survive being separated. I know it.

I love that puppy. She was so sweet and small, with big feet and little brown eyes and a pink tummy that she let me scratch. It's worth a visit just to see her!

Anyway. Time for me to depart for the night. I only have two lessons tomorrow and neither are languages so I am looking forward to the next few days. I need this weekend just to relax and recharge my batteries a little.

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