Bahhh
<<2003-03-15 - 8:57 p.m.>>

Anyway. It’s not been a brilliant two days, what with Rob turning weird on me and all. I hate it when people try and tell me what to do. I think it’s sorted out now because I just let it go in the end and I get why he was pissed but it was like a flashback to Lauren again, someone telling me who I can and cannot talk to. I HATE that, I will forgive anyone anything but that it the worst and quickest way to get my defenses up.

Here’s the conversation anyway.

[20:18:59] vampireuk: that and this sy thing, I refuse to let it

affect us *clings to you*

[20:19:09] Luce: well it's not

[20:19:12] Luce: ..is it?

[20:20:03] vampireuk: no :) but I just didnt like him being around

you

[20:20:19] Luce: but i still don't get why

[20:20:25] Luce: its not like he was mean to me or anything

[20:21:23] vampireuk: I know but he was talking crap about me and I

just no like it *hugs*

[20:21:37] Luce: he wasnt talking crap about you when i was around

him

[20:21:40] Luce: you dont have to worry about it

[20:22:23] vampireuk: well lets have a official boycott anyway :)

[20:22:37] Luce: what do you mean boycott

[20:23:15] vampireuk: just not aknowledge his existance and never

mention him

[20:23:20] Luce: okay

[20:23:40] Luce: but i'm not saying that if i ever happen to see him i

wont talk to him and if they ever offer me a lift i'm

taking it :)

[20:24:30] vampireuk: I still dont know how you can stand been around

him

[20:24:36] Luce: i dont hold grudges

[20:24:51] vampireuk: even after all this crap he has done to me

[20:26:05] Luce: yes but its not to me is it, it's not directed at me,

theres nobody i hate

[20:26:08] Luce: i dont do confrontation

[20:26:46] Luce: youre making it sound like i go visit him on a weekly

basis

[20:26:55] vampireuk: No im not

[20:27:23] vampireuk: I just cant understand how you can be civil

after ive been through all of this shit because of him

[20:27:47] Luce: so you were annoyed with me over it, i knew it

[20:28:09] Luce: i cant explain why, i just am civil, i'm civil to

everyone, i'm civil to bloody Lauren, after 5 years of her

running my life for me

[20:28:31] Luce: it's just the way i am

[20:29:21] Luce: call me someone without principles, whatever

[20:30:25] Luce: and now youre not talking...

[20:30:51] vampireuk: *curls up on you* well i dont know what to say

[20:31:56] Luce: well okay all i'll say is you cant tell me what to

do, not that you are, but just dont because i really react

badly to that

[20:31:58] Luce: and now i say we forget it

[20:33:08] vampireuk: *sighs* ok, i still dont like him been near you

though

[20:33:20] Luce: dont sigh! *pokes*

[20:33:22] Luce: why sighing

[20:33:47] Luce: and is it that you dont like him around me or is it

the fact that you dont think i'm sticking up for you

[20:34:28] vampireuk: its both

[20:35:44] Luce: fantastic, i suck

[20:35:46] Luce: *cries*

[20:36:01] vampireuk: noooooo

[20:36:04] vampireuk: :(

[20:37:00] Luce: well you might not know this about me but i've never

stuck up for anyone in my life, when laura was being

bullied i did nothing about it, when this girl started

smacking lauren about i didnt do anything and i hate that

about myself and it's just one more thing to add to the

list of stuff i dont do that i should

[20:37:42] vampireuk: *huge hug* you dont suck

[20:38:48] Luce: apparently i do because i manage to make you

miserable :(

[20:39:01] vampireuk: you dont!

[20:39:08] Luce: i have now

I just think that I’ve come too far to be ordered about by now. And yeah, Sy did some shitty stuff but I think we’re all at fault here in some ways and like I said I don’t hold grudges.

I was talking to Mark about it and he said “My advice is go out and get laid,” I was like “Lol, no I think that’s your solution to relationship problems!” and he pretended to be offended. Heh.

Alright, I’m over it. Bah. I will not let this split us up. Whatever, it’s made me miserable but hey add one thing to the list. I’m over it now anyway.

Really.

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