Urgh, crap
<<2003-03-28 - 6:46 p.m.>> I feel so awful. I have all this stuff bottled up inside me, like being angry over the situation at work and really not wanting to go tomorrow, stuff about the Pill... Situation is, I'm supposed to get my period in the next couple of days and for some stupid fucking reason when I went to the clinic today, I had to make an appointment for Monday because the drop-in clinic is only for under 18s. I thought that INCLUDED 18 year olds but apparently not. So I can't take them until my next period which, me being me, is in 6 god damn weeks. I don't want my mum to find the pills but I can't tell her I'm going on it because I just can't, she'll judge me and be a bitch about it. I'm depressed because I'm at the point now where I'm thinking well maybe we missed "the window" of time where usual couples sleep together and now we're too comfortable with each other for it to ever happen. I mean that's not how I feel but I don't want to have to FORCE him you know? I know he'll read this. I can't even talk to him about it cause it's too embarassing. But, hey, there we are. << - >> |